That’s what it feels like when you dishonor yourself by being inauthentic. A little piece of you dies because you chose to go with the crowd, to fit in, liked or accepted. That’s the price you just paid.
It’s not something tangible like money or even physically observed but something deep down happened to your self-esteem and respect when you chose to be inauthentic, to be who you really are just for the sake of being able to fit in.
It’s such a high price to pay and yet you won’t even realize how much until one day you wake up and wonder “Who am I? How did I, the real me, get lost in this game of life”.
I’ll tell you how it happened, slowly, bit by bit, with one fear after another until there are only traces of you left. Your truth is still hidden, afraid to be exposed which is quite understandable if you’re not quite sure about them or aren’t the type of person who can be diplomatic when disagreeing with others. However, pretending to be, or hiding your true nature can cause all sorts of physical and emotional problems.
One day you may explode and those around you will stand there in shock wondering what got into you. There must be something wrong with you if you can’t control yourself. But who do you have to blame, no one but yourself because you let the fear of not being liked and accepted get in the way of being your authentic self?
What do you do now? Well, you discover who the authentic self is within. Day by day and bit by bit you meet those fears head on until your authentic self no longer feels the need to hide. In the end, you’ll find the people who are still in your life truly love and accept you for who you are.